Sometimes, life should have an undo button. Or, at the very least, the mind should have an undo button. We live in this world with our dreams, hopes, fears within us. Our unique thoughts, strengths and weaknesses make us who we are. But sometimes, for far too long, the prison of destructive habits and negative thoughts leave us zapped out. That is where a quick undo would certainly help.
The mind has a mind of its own, really. The mind controls, the mind creates reality, the mind deceives, the mind enlightens - rarely is the mind ever silent. There is someone I have known all my life. Her mind is a madhouse, she says. Everyday she gets up, she goes through a drill - a routine of sorts that needs her to be at a computer, and at a desk for 7-9 hours. It kills a part of her everyday to be where she has to be and to do what she has to do. She cannot quit - the price of quitting is too steep, and unforgiving. But, over the course of the 7 years that she's invested in this typical thing that everyone does - she has lost her spark, her spirit, her edge, her sanity, her curiosity, her inner voice and her inner child. She knows she needs to get out, and tread the path that has been awaiting her for ages. Will she take the leap?
The thing though that she asked me was: why can't she be sane, bright, semi-fulfilled, semi-happy, semi-enthusiastic doing what she was doing currently. Why was everyone else around her comfortable doing this thing, but she was miserable, and suffering and screaming her way through this. Why was she left out of the party where everyone else was burning the dance floor. Why is she the cursed one. Why is she at the wrong place, and they are at the right place. She’s fought hard for 25 years to be where she is, only to be left stranded in a swamp with a couple of flailing branches to her rescue.
She has grown so numb, so tired that all she wants is peace of mind. She wants to feel a warmth, and a sense of belonging and accomplishment. She wants to undo the programming of her mind, and retune her mental wavelength to love her 9 to 5 routine. Just like everyone else, she wants to thrive, feel ambitious and find her sweet spot in the world of cubicles. It would be so much easy if one day she woke up, and felt right at home in the corporate world. She asks me - is there no way to undo what the mind creates. I sit in silence, smile a sad man's smile for I know this girl oh so well - my reflection in the mirror, and my companion for life.