A persistent, arbitrary and a quirky phenomena - it utters the strangest and the most conflicting things ever. Sometimes, its a calm ocean and sometimes a torrential deluge. Sometimes it will anchor you to sanity and sometimes it will plunge you into the depths of insanity. Welcome to the mysterious world of inner voice - the beacon that's supposed to navigate us through the choppy waters and the murky maze of life.
A couple of days ago, a voice from within me said the most bizarre and the most weirdest thing. It asked me to change. It said - I need to be social, I need to be more confident, I need to be more out there and I need to connect with people. Was my inner self finally opening up to an epiphany? Was this what they call a sublime realization that rattles the very foundation of your life and leads you to a brand new path in life? Was I finally being enlightened by the deepest, truest part of me? Was this the wisdom I had seeked? Was this the answer to all the questions I had asked the universe? Was this the antidote that would rage against the dying of the light? Would this lead me to my one true path in life? Would this bestow upon me the much elusive and the much needed - peace of mind? I was skeptical, a little mellow and surprised.
A day later, that same voice said - No, I don't need to be social, and I don't need to be confident. I just need to be a free spirit, to be as weird as the real me is, and to be as eccentric as the real me is. I just need to be able to let myself be the real me - to let go of the idea of perfection and the relentless and insatiable impulse to control things. All I have to do is let myself be the person I was becoming without any qualms. The blueprint of social etiquette cannot build or nurture your core but your free spirit and your inner child surely will do the trick.
So, what exactly is this inner voice? Where does it come from - the conscious or the subconscious?Is it influenced by others? And, what's its exact purpose? Whatever might be the answers but its the voice not necessarily of reason but the voice of truth that - when heeded or probed - will illuminate that which lies in darkness.